no-but-i-feel-a-bit-bad-and-am-dealing-with-it-by-just-saying-nothing-rather-than-saying-no-in-a-nice-way

DON'T LEAVE ME HANGING. i put myself out there and instead of just being gently pushed back you let me fall on my face. that was a pretty fucking huge thing for me and do you think im gonna want to do it again? its not THAT big of a deal. so why couldn't you reply. it won't be awkward cause I WON'T LET IT BE. but just so you know, i like you less now. it was meant to do the complete opposite. thats what i get for letting myself be proactive and optimistic. FUCKING TYPICAL.

end rant.

don't worry, being sleepy before you've even been awake for 11 hours is like, totally normal! right?

boots by bonbons, jeans by cheap monday, vintage tee from shag on chapel, jacket by lollipop [love a massive hood, and it was only $20. hellz yeah], vintage handbag from savers.

pretty park. for some bizarre reason, melbourne decided to have autumn in may. even though its been cooler weather for a while, only now are the streets lined with golden leaves and the trees around my local gazebo are lellow. :). i took these when i bailed from uni early on thursday, i realised that i never have anytime at home on weekday arvos which means im rarely home alone. i like being home alone. sad face.

i picked up these MAD BOOTS off lay-by today. i am SUPER EXCITED about them. photos are IMINENT. im not sure why i keep using CAPITAL LETTERS. oh thats right for EMPHASIS and a feeling of SUPERIORITY.

if you're wondering about the block rocking beatz im obvz listening to here its Of Montreal, around the second photo i took Suffer for Fashion came on. Natch.
My mum said natch to me today, during an msn convo from one end of our shop to other (hello laziness, here to stay? rightio then). It simultaneously made me really happy (cue hilarious "hi customer how are you doing today excuse me while i rofl subtley behind the counter here..." laughter) and slightly worried about what it means for the english language if my language purist mother is using natch in everyday conversation. *runs*.

there are heaps of things i want atm including tavi's tee, badass jewellery, stuff from topshop.com, shoes and winter basics inc. rad cardigans, so hopefully now that my monetary situation is less dire some of these will come to be mine. wow long sentence. ok shutting up now baiiiii guyyyz.

the only good thing in my life is powder pink nail polish.

everybody's changing and i don't feel the same. song of the day for shiz.
i've lost all ability for perspective or realism. i am cynical and jaded. i want semester to be over but i can't think of anything worse than exams at this current moment. im fkn lonely as all shit but im fairly sure boyfriends scare me. uncharted [for the most part] territory and whatnot. i wore this on friday night. actually quite liked it. yay. except my hair. ew, dirty. thank god for some things that never change. music and fashion. till death do us part.

i went to savers and picked up some sweet shit, so yay for a little bit of inspiration. expect to see them soon. bye for now, hopefully next time will be less depressing for both of us.

what's that you're holding, oh a Logie thats right that weird Australian Emmy-and-Peoples-Choice-Awards Love Child coolio...onto the fashion...

Kate Ritchie looked beautiful in J'Aton, this dress was interesting and quite possibly the most daring choice of the night. Which is kind of depressing. Not that it isn't nice, I am a fan of draping and navy blue, both of which are exhibited here in abundance.

Kat whatever-her-name-is, oops, Underbelly actress, won best actress or some such. I just thought it was hilarious that their lopsided smiles balance each other out. I mean come on, meant to play opposite each other or what. Pity her dress kind of looks like she's about to walk down the isle.

Who would have thought that the So You Think You Can Dance team would provide a RELIEF from the Completely Pitiful Fashion Showing [for the purpose of this post I am choosing to ignore that thing in green on the right]...

Jason [left]: is way too happy with himself, but he looks good.
Natalie: voluminous, white, drapey, pretty. good hair. nice.
Matt: Now I understand the signature hat, thats just not cool. Massive props for the skinny tie though.

Some girls from home and away, don't hate the greys, or the red. Black might have potential. Girl in yellow looks like she needs a good meal. This is what is going on inside girl-in-centers head.
"Ok so, I really wish I could've got my hands on this Herve Leger dress, but the crap local production I'm on doesn't get me that far up the fashion chain, so this loose fitting knock-off will have to do. I am glad I'm on this crappy local production though, as opposed to the competition, cause then I might've been in that photo over there (see below) instead of this, significantly less tragic one."

Seriously. Girls. You're not on dancing with the stars. And even if you were THIS WOULD NEVER, NOT EVER, BE OK. Eugh. You there, in the middle, are you not a FULLY GROWN WOMAN? tell those Imbeciles either side of you that they are making your potentially not horrible dress look like crap by standing beside you. It's really just selfish when you think about it...

Ok, I cannot take anymore of this. Catch you later skater.

a project

of the silver variety. im going for something along the lines of a happy medium between this:

this, well really just her in general,

and this designer is just...yeah:

hhhhhhhoooooooh wow.
im struggling with rings, because i have too many that i love, but the wrist is coming along nicely. one the keerstin wintrup wraps [last 2] would go down a treat though, they really would. pity they actually cost money, dang, where can i get me some of that to splash about? All i'm really talking about is economic stimulus really...
PC: jak&jil, Knight Cat, Foxyman [x2].

listening to:

Question of the...I dunno, Month or something...

where the 90's really long enough ago to be "BACK" ALREADY?

since I was alive to remember it, and I haven't even made it through 2 whole decades yet...I'm thinking no?

says she with a not-so-long-ago purchased pair of white jeans...

with a hole in the knee... i swear i didn't put it there, it just happened and i went with it...

ok so maybe I should just... stop...